In exactly 30 days from today I will be offering a Heartbeat workshop in Bologna, Italy. Trova il tuo Cuore | Find Your Heart.
Honored to have been invited, to present this 5Rhythms Heartbeat map that I love so deeply and to be able to do it in my native language and precisely in the city where I was born.
No translation necessary. All I will need is to surrender to the flow and the power of this practice so to be able to navigate through the emotions that arise. Emotions are definable in many different ways and languages but ultimately they are the expressions of the body intelligence. We can explore them, sailing by the wind of Love, the invisible force that unify all humans without separation of shapes, colors or sounds. Of course other beings, even plants might experience emotions, but this time around I'll stick with "just" us humans.
Back to the roots. Back to the spot where I was born and where I experienced my first primordial emotions and reacted accordingly, as we all do in different, unique and yet similar ways. This will be for me a completion of a circle or better a spiral as I'd like to see my life three-dimensional. At least.
Growing up in that little ancient and vibrant city I did experienced my emotions fully, in depth and sometimes in excess. Furiously and desperately, ramming into the world with the enthusiasm and ingenuity of my trust in a total ephemeral immortality. With all my soul and body (anima e corpo) wanting to find my heart, looking for it all over, in any possible ways: in the light and in the darkness, in all kind of relationships with men and women, in gurus, in books, in mountains and forests, in substances and in daydreams, in politics, even in arts and in music, in love making, in creation and in destruction. To finally discover that my heart is right there, in my chest, where it's supposed to be. All I needed to do was to stop running and looking for it elsewhere. And all I needed to do was to quiet down and surrender to that relentless, perfect deep drum beat and let my breath sing a love song in tune with it and listen to that perfect harmonic, celestial, syncopated cathartic, symphonic composition that we call life.
But. It took me this long to be able to realize all of these. In 56 days I will be 69. If you find yourself on the similar path or search, on a quest to find your heart and all the power of it, I would have one simple suggestion: be patient. It took me infinite trials and errors to go through fear and to find courage, to be able to forgive and tame my anger, to let go of my “man's pride” and cry my sadness out, not to feel guilty to dive into joy, and even longer to embrace and be embraced by compassion. And still I'm working on all of them. Daily.
It took me many years of extreme attempts, navigating through confusion in many directions. And mistakes, where I hurt myself and others. For that I did and will always ask for forgiveness, understanding and compassion, as I learned to forgive, understand and to be more compassionate to myself and others.
My gratitude for the support and inspiration for being in this path goes to many, but it goes full blast to the 5Rhythms practice. To Gabrielle Roth, to her son Jonathan Horan and to all the other amazing teachers that led the way for me, to be now in a place where I can be part of this worldwide tribe of dancers, seekers, lovers, artists, and healers. I am forever grateful to be able to create and serve a thriving community with my beloved companion in San Francisco, the beautiful city we both live in.
In 30 days I will be traveling to my native land, bringing back not silks and spices but music and dances, emotions and hopes, and sharing what I've learned and incorporated in my life. Reconnecting with my roots and renewing the stream of life force that comes from all the ancestors before me. To celebrate the strength they passed on to me that made it possible for them to go through the struggles and survived diseases, poverty and wars. I am them and I want to make them proud of me at every step, as I’m offering this healing path to the lineage after me. Branching out as far as I can and offering Love and Compassion as much as I can. In service to this wonderful word we have been gifted with. For all of us and for all our future generations. We are one and we all came from the same roots. And we are all going to the same direction, as mysterious as that is.
Come and dance with me in my home land!
Honoring with fiery gratitude the land of my ancestors, the message of their hearts, embedded in my bones. My roots.